i survived batad!

yes! but unfortunately i didn't survive the game of love. Yes we broke up (not official.) We haven't talked since then yet. Yes I was angry when I said that. Only the two of us knew what happened next. Yes, I've realized my mistakes now. But why aren't you running after me? Does it mean you just gave up everything just like that? Does it mean you're ready to give me up? Shit! I can't bear this pain! O Geez!
Dear God, is he really not meant for me? God please, if there's somebody better for me? Please, you know I'm miserable right now, I love him so much you know that! Please help me, I know You're the only one who can help me. :(

anyway, thank you too Lord for making me survive Batad. I'm still here, I'm still alive, but please, heal my broken heart :(