Gusto ko ng chocolates!

I want chocolates while reviewing! :|

Please oh please :)

The signs that I have been seeing lately.

I don't know. Will I consider these things a sign?

1. The day that he chose J over me, I used God wants you to know. And this is what it said...

...that it's time to start living in the present. Letting go of the past is not easy, especially if you have wounds that have never properly healed. But, the past is past and living there may be preventing you from fully experiencing the present. Likewise fear of what may be looming around the corner can also prevent you from fully enjoying the present. Live in the moment and look forward to eternity with God, now that's a great present.

2. When I decided to continue the fight...

... that it's important to listen to your gut. Reason has its place in this world, certainly. But your gut is that subconscious part of yourself that knows exactly what is right for you. And oftentimes God speaks to you through that subtle but true gut feeling.

3. When suddenly I have this feeling that I want to give chance to a friend who likes me (I decided to give him a chance because of one thing he said in his letter. And it's about his prayer regarding that matter)...

... that she who kneels before God can stand before anyone. Take refuge in God and you will be able to handle anything life throws your way.

4. When I'm still continuing the fight. I still just want to let him know what I feel...


A sign? I do not know. :|
I saw this paper bag from bench which said... Once is not enough. RECYCLE.

:(

Pinili nya na si J :(

Ang hirap magmahal. Nakakapagod. :(

What do you see in him?

They laughed at me and asked,
"What do you see in him?" I smiled back and said, "Everything you dont."

What do you see in him?

They laughed at me and asked,
"What do you see in him?" I smiled back and said, "Everything you dont." ♥

Sweet truth, bitter catch

HERE'S THE SWEET TRUTH: Someday someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked out with anyone else.

HERE'S THE BITTER CATCH: When you kept on waiting but nobody came, it means that you already let that one pass you by.

Ang babae parang...

PULIS.. Kahit hawak na niya ang lahat ng EBIDENSYA sa mundo, gusto pa rin niya marinig na aminin mo ang TOTOO. :)

BARBIE.. Pwede mo hubaran, damitan at paglaruan. Pero tandaan mo BRO na ang TUNAY NA LALAKI hindi naglalaro ng Barbie. :)

ALGEBRAIC EXPRESSION.. Mas MAGANDA kapag nasa SIMPLEST FORM. :)

KALAPATI.. Kapag inalagaan mo ng mabuti, pakawalan mo man.. babalik at babalik pa din sa iyo. :)

SAPATOS.. Kahit na yung MAGANDA yung gusto namin. Mas pipiliin pa rin namin yung kung san kami KUMPORTABLE. :)

BULAKLAK.. sobrang ganda kaya wag mo na pitasin kung sisirain mo lang. :)

ABSTRACT PAINTING.. kahit minsan hindi mo maintindihan, maganda parin tignan. :)

KULANGOT.. Minsan pa-HARD-to-GET, minsan kung saan saan NAKADIKIT pero minsan BIGLA BIGLA nlang NAHUHULOG. hihi. :)))

Gusto ko ng mainlove muli. :(

On this day of your life, Ish, we believe God wants you to know ... that there are many distractions in this world.

Some are pleasant; some are not. But whether they are pleasant or not, when you get swayed by distractions, you will lose your focus. What is important to you? Focus on that and then when you need a break, you can choose to allow to be distracted.

Many distractions indeed. For this time of my life, I need to focus on my review. But because conscience has been bugging me and my review and life is affected, I have to do this thing. This thing that has been bugging me since forever. :(

I hope that I have the power to know the ending. I don't want this. I don't want everything that's happening right now. It's hurting me a lot. Giving me a pain in the ass a lot. :(

Pagod na ako :(

Getting ready

This time, I'll think of myself above others.

And readying for the might be biggest shock and hurt of my life.

Hush

I think it's about time not to tell anybody what is happening to me. And to make decisions all by myself. All my thoughts. Without asking for other people's opinions. I hope I am making the right decisions. :( No regrets.

Sana masindihan na ang ilaw.

At muling magkakulay ang Pasko :)

Dream

Now I would like to believe that dreams are true. I don't know. As I was thinking this morning. I remember that I had a dream. I just do not know when was it, but it was like he and I are having conversation, a casual conversation. We are talking about our lives and how are we these days. In my dream it was just a friendly conversation, but deep inside I'm still hoping that it would be a good start again for us. Then as our conversation continues, he mentioned where he was on Nov. 1. He said that he was with J and his family on Undas. I don't know, maybe visited the province of J. That was when my heart stopped beating. I knew that what's happening isn't right. I finally decided to stop. I said that we should stop seeing each other, and stop everything. It isn't just right. Both for them and for me who's still hoping. Before we parted ways, I told him never to speak to me again and never run after me. Truly he did. I saw in my dreams that I wasn't looking at him while going different way. And he did the same way.

I kinda believe it's true. It is always what is happening. He never ran after me. Now I would like to convince myself that he never really loved me. He's just fooling me and playing on my feelings. What kind of jerk have I been in love with. :(

Now, upon seeing their photos with my naked eye, I feel like everything I dreamt of was true. Everything was true. And now I would like to believe that he really chose her over me. That's fine. I just hate him for ruining my life. I hope karma knocks on his door. He is a total jerk. :( After everything he said to me, he again proved me that he is a lie! This happened for the second time. The first was February, when he texted me all about his feelings. And then by March he already got a new girlfriend. Now it's happening again. After telling me he loves me, he still wasn't able to let the other go. A word is just word. And actions still speaks louder than words. Now, however I would like to believe that he said what he really felt, I consider it a lie. Seeing them together and happy is a strong proof.

And leaving me again falling on my knees, wounded, I hope this would make me a better person.

Working on forgiveness. I hope to have it soon.

And soon, I hope to have my very own too. I want to fall in love again.

It's killing me.

Die!

Die die die!

Someone

I wish someone would come into my life, understand everything I'm going through, listen to everything I would say and never get tired of doing so. It is so damn hard to be me. Why do such things have to happen to me? I am not that strong. But why am I being given these problems. I can't do this. Gusto ko na rin sumaya.

Why is that?

Please. Ayoko na. Nahihirapan na ako. Why do I have to suffer this fate? :(

Mamatay ka na.

Mamatay ka na, please? Walang hiya. :(

Don't lose hope

I hope I'd be able to find those. One, is the picture I've been wearing on my college ID back then, second is the scrap book I made, third is the xerox copy of HOA book which contains something. Well I don't really consider that one. If it gets lost forever that would be fine. But I hope those 2, I can find it most especially the 2nd one. Please.

I would never lose my faith in finding it. Just like the ones I just found yesterday. The installers that I've been looking for so long. I thought of it lost. And never expected to find it again. But voila, I just found it yesterday when it wasn't the one I'm looking for. I guess, it was just the right time for me to see it. And maybe, it isn't the time yet for me to see what I am looking for yesterday. Thinking out loud.

I will be stopping this tonight. And I hope sooner next year I'll be able to see it. Please. I will pray.

Lost!

I just realized that I'm too good at hiding something from people. Imagine, even me, I couldn't find it where I hid it just a year ago.

Am I too good? Or are these just signs of aging. Oh no. Please. Let me find it, puhlease.

Make a Wish

http://www.banchettomanila.com/2011/11/make-wish-this-11-11-11.html?spref=fb

Accident

Today, I met another accident. And yes, kasama na naman ako dun. :(

Traumatic experience. Pangalawang beses ko na itong maaksidente.

Di ko na maalala ang nangyari bago ang aksidente pero may narinig akong malakas na tunog sabay ng pag-gewang ng aming sasakyan. Di ko alam ang nangyari pero nagulat ako. Pagtingin ko sa likod basag na ang salamin. Kinabahan ako.

Lumabas ako ng sasakyan at nagulat sa aking nakita. Malakas pala talaga ang tama sa amin. Gusto kong maiyak. Kasi swerte kami. Sa mga nangyayaring aksidente, maswerteng walang nangyayaring masama samin. Pero masama ang loob ko sa driver ng bus. Gusto ko syang murahin. Gago ka pala eh, pano kung may nasaktan samin. Di ko kayang patawarin yung walang hiyang yun kung may nasaktan samin! Si ate nauntog at nabubog. Kaya dinala pa kami sa ospital para makapagpacheck up. Ako naman, huli na ng maramdaman ang sakit sa ulo. Di ko maalala kung nauntog din ba ako, psychological lang yung nararamdaman ko o dahil lang din sa lakas ng tama kaya talagang naalog kami.

Bus Driver na bumangga sa amin pa yung maaangas kanina ng paglabas ko. Tngina mo! Gustong gusto kitang murahin! Pasalamat ka walang nasaktan samin! Tngina mo lang talaga!

Dahil sa pangalawang beses na ito at talagang natakot ako, nanginginig akong nagtext kay mama. "Ma, nabangga kami. Tawagan mo ako." Nanginginig din akong bumaba ng sasakyan.

Sa ganitong pangyayari, gusto ko talagang magpasalamat kay God. Sa tingin ko destined talaga itong mangyari sa amin, kung ano man ang purpose Nya kung bakit nangyari ito, hindi ko alam. Pero maraming nangyari na nagcause ng delay kaya nung time na yun kami dumaan sa NLEX. Una, naiwan ko cellphone ko. Pangalawa, hinatid si Mama at V sa kabilang lane (usually di na ginagawa ito). Pangatlo saktong oras lang na dumalaw ako kay D dahil nanganak na sya. Pang-apat dumaan pa kami sa DQ bago mangyari ang aksidente. Lahat ito nangyari bago ang aksidente. Normally di namin ito ginagawa pero kanina ginawa namin ito kaya sumagi sa isip ko, siguro nga destined kami na maaksidente. Destined na noong oras at araw na yun kami dumaan sa NLEX kung saan binangga kami ng bus. Pero eto, thank God! Thank God dahil destined din kami na yung Trooper ang dalang sasakyan. Imagine kung yung kotse ang dala namin na mas maliit. Di kaya mas malakas ang impact sa amin noon? Pangalawa, feeling ko destined din na di ako natutulog nung time na yun. Kasi kung tulog ako, nakasandal ako sa salamin. At malamang ako ang may pinakamalakas na untog nun. Thank You Lord. Thank You po dahil alam kong niligtas Nyo kami. Maliit na bagay. Walang nasaktan. Pero miracle po ito para sa amin. Maraming salamat Lord. Maraming salamat po.

Reasons Why I Love Popoy

The whole review isn't funny though, if the writer wants us to laugh about his entry. Well then, Sir, it is not. Mind you. But the numbers 1, 2 and 3 hit me. These are the reasons why I love Popoy of One More Chance. That's my man! :)

http://www.lagarista.com/site/entry/10_reasons_kung_bat_idol_ng_mga_lalake_si_popoy_from_one_more_chance

BOO-drigo

Pag sumikat ako, isa sa babalikan ko tong lalakeng to. Kairita ka, dear. Better be ready beyotch!

Intayin mo lang. Mukha ka naman terorista. Ya heard?

Cellulites

Targeting to minimize these cellulites by February. Fck off, bitches!

S[he’s] br[ok]en be[cause] s[he] be[lie]ve[d].

I dreamt of. . .

This is weird. I had dreams, weird dreams. Just the other night I dreamt of him. The dream was a blur, the event was unclear as to what happened. But I just remember a scene from that dream that I was hugging him and crying. He was some sort of uttering lines from One More Chance, but not really. He said like maybe we are into our present relationships today because maybe it was planned. That we will learn from our present relationships. I was crying and hugging him tight but I disagree. In the first place, we should never get into another relationship if we are not both ready to get into another. Secondly, if it was true that he still loves me (as he said when we talked), he shouldn’t be engaged in a relationship right now. Now I see him a total jerk. Never could he fool me again.

After that crying scene of mine and crying out loud my heart about the disagreement.... BOOM! It ended. I woke up. It is just a little odd that the that the night of that very same day when I had the dream, my cousin told me about him being single. I don’t know why he has to tell me such things. I don’t want to know anything about him (‘ya heard?). She also told me something about his status of getting tired and pissed. I don’t know how to react. It’s their problem and I’m out of it.

Just this morning, I slept after attending the mass. It is so weird. I almost forgot what the dream was all about. But the thought of it goes this way. It was like a continuation of their story. Yes, on my dream they broke up. And he wanted her back. He went to the condominium where she is living. It was a blur. But I know he was sad not finding her there. He remembered some thoughts of her while seeing some things that are kinda related to her (This dream of mine was like a movie. I was watching him while doing all those). Then there she came. But wait, on my dream I was her. I can feel what she feels. I remember that in my dream I (in J’s personality and body) asked him, is there a chance that you and her (referring to me, the real me) be back together. Then he said, yes, not meaning it.

After that they were about to make that thing. That unthinkable thing, he unclothed his little thing. That was weird because it looks dry and flaky. Then he was forcing her to do that thing with him (for the last time? Or I do not know, maybe for as long as he liked to).

I don’t know why I have to see him in my dreams. :( I am moving on. Really. :( I shouldn’t stop seeing him. Even in my dreams.

This dream made me realize too what he was doing with me the time that we broke up. The same thing that I saw in my dreams. For the last times that we were together (even after we broke up), he was still using me. For his own fun and satisfaction. Sad but true, I loved him that much that I allowed him to do that. And now all of those are my biggest regrets. If only I can turn back time. . . :(

Pwede na ba ako sumuko?

Pagod na ako eh. Pagod na pagod na. Di ko na kaya. :( Ayoko na.

Some people

are just plain insensitive

Bakit?

Bakit walang nangyayari saking maganda? Bakit lahat ng tao kaaway ko? Bakit wala akong malapitan? Gusto ko na maglie low. Ayoko na.

Nakakainis

Bakit ba laging kontrabida?

Sa unang pagsabi pa lang sakin na hindi daw kami pinayagan alam ko ng may kampihang naganap.

1. Ate A - Nakakainis. Sya ang nagbalita saking di kami pinayagan
2. Lola A - Gatong.
3. Atty A - Ang may kapangyarihan
4. A - Ang dapat kasama

Dapat magbbike kami bukas. Activity ito para sa church na sinalihan namin. Nagbayad kami ng P150 each. Ako si A at Ate. Bale 450 ang binayad namin. Pero nagbayad kami para sa wala. Bakit? Ganito yun.
Umpisa pa lang, parang ako lang ang nagffollow up kay A na kuhanin ang jersey namin at ipaayos ang bike. Nasa Manila ako kaya hindi ko maasikaso ang mga ganung bagay. Wala. Parang wala lang sa kanya.
Usually Saturday ako umuuwi. Pero ngayon (Friday), pinilit kong umuwi dahil 6am bukas ang activity. Paguwi ko. Bandang 11:30pm na yun, sinabi sakin ni Ate A na hindi daw kami pinayagan. At dinamay pa si Lola A. Halatang may kampihan eh. At ang sinasabi pa si Atty A daw ang hindi pumayag. Duh!! Kung sya lang ang hindi pumayag at wala silang kinalaman dun, malamang edi sana pinagtanggol nila kami. At kung sya talaga ang may alam na ayaw nya kami payagan bakit biglan pati si Ate A alam na ganun ang desisyon? Halata naman eh. Pakana din nila na sabihin kay Atty A na wag kami payagan. Nakakapikon talaga. At ito namang si A, ano? Natakot na naman. Naging sunud sunuran na naman! Kaya ka walang lakas ng loob eh. Nagpapadala ka sa sasabihin nila. Diba sila din ang tumutol sayo sa pag-aaral mo sa Manila? O eh ano? Pinanghinaan ka ng loob? Wala ka sariling paa! Nakakainis! Magsama sama kayo.

Sana masaya kayo sa ginawa nyo.

Birthday

Thank You po para sa taong nagdaan. Ang taon na maraming pagsubok at kalungkutan. Gayunpaman, nagpapasalamat pa rin ako dahil sa nagdaang taon, napatunayan ko na ako pala ay malakas. May mga napag-alaman akong katangian na dati'y di ko inakalang magagawa o kakayanin ko.

Maraming salamat sa lahat ng bumuo ng taon ko. Mahal ko kayong lahat. Ang aking buhay ay di makukumpleto kung wala kayo.

Sana sa susunod pang taon na nakaabang, sana ay maging masaya ito. Isang buhay na payapa at kuntento. Yan lamang ang mahihiling ko.

Muli po, marami pong salamat sa pagkakataong ibinigay Ninyo sa akin.

Channing Tatum

Oh my. I think I just fall in love with him. Wanna watch Step Up. Okaaay. I know I am outdated. I know. Ok? Just shut up. Ha ha. Anyways, he is my current love. :)

10 Things

The 10 things I hate about you.

This has to STOP!

I can't stop downloading movies. Why am I so into this thing lately? Why?! Now's not the right time. OMG. :S STOOOOPPP!

Dear Feelings,

Please die. Now!

Ish

Hoping

I hope one day I can totally say, "I'm so over you."

I hope. :( Why do I have to feel this way? Everytime.

Masakit

Mahirap

Forgive

Forgive yourself first then forgive others that hurt you.

This was what the sermon of the priest was all about. Eat... Pray... Love.

Chugule?

Feeling like a Korean. :P Anyeonghaseo! Chugule?

Love

If you love someone, set him free. If he/she comes back, he is yours. But if he doesn't, he's never meant to be.

Respect a Lady

Treat her like you would want a man to treat your sister, In other words, treat her as a person, not an object. Really treat her like a princess and always try and give her comments that make her feel good rather than put her down

Listen to her opinions or ideas. Appreciate her as she is and never underestimate her intelligence. Treat her as an equal. Call her in advance to make plans to go out and never assume that she doesn’t have anything better already scheduled..

Listen to her and respond in a non-condescending manner. Be there for her if she’s crying or upset by holding her. Compliment her… if you think she is beautiful say it! “beautiful” is so much more respectful than “hot”. Love and learn to appreciate her for who she is, as well as her body type. Don’t try and change her physically, just love her natural beauty.

Hold hands with her on the street…don’t be ashamed to be romantic and when you meet up with your friends, introduce her. Don’t ever cheat on her…talk things through.

Be a gentleman! Look out for her feelings, accept her values/morals, be interested in her life, ask her what’s going on, be helpful, never put her down, if she’s wrong don’t go out of your way to prove her. Be nice and treat her like she is special. Don’t push her to do things she is not ready for. Treat her with respect and pay attention to the small things.

Don’t put her down, or make her feel uncomfortable when you are hanging out together with your friends or your parents, Stand up for her, if one of your friends puts her down, confront them and tell them that it is not okay.

Ganun ba ako katanga?

Para maniwala sa mga kasinungalingan mo? Ang tanga tanga ko!

FUCK!

Ngayon alam ko na kung bakit di ka talaga nakalaan sakin. Kasi lolokohin mo lang ako. Gago!

Lie

Even though it's been so long, I still get hurt by the fact that that person is lied to me. Ginagago nya ako. Ginawa akong tanga. Birthday bukas ng friend nya. Pero naalala ko dati, hindi na kami nun pero nagovernight sya dahil birthday daw ng friend nya (yung friend nya na magbbirthday bukas). Pano ko hindi makakalimutan yun eh yun yung ginawa nyang excuse sakin kung bakit di sya makakapunta sa birthday ko. October yun. October daw yung friend nya. Eh ano pa lang ba ngayon? Diba August?

Naalala ko tuloy dati. Sabi nya sakin "Dito na ko" sa text. Tapos biglang wala ng reply. (Ibig sabihin nasa bahay na sya). Tinatawagan ko, tinetext pero di ako nirereplyan. Nagriring lang ang phone. Hanggang sa di ko na macontact. Ano yun? Naglowbat? Kinabukasan tinawagan ako ng nanay nya. Kasama ko raw ba sya. HINDI DAW UMUWI KAGABI.

GAGO. GAGO.

Humanap ka ng gagaguhin mo. May karma din. Dadating din sayo yan.

Remember me?

I once meant everything to you.

Zzzz

I have been organizing pictures since Adam! Im sooo tired, lazy and all. Bhhooorreeeng!

The Wedding Singer

just made me cry T_T

2 Days

Has been absent for two days. And still not feeling well. In times of sickness, that is when you will feel the toughest part. Especially when you are far from home. :(

Studying

I seriously miss it. Really. Back to the days when all you have to think of is how to pass the semester. No bigger problems than that.

I miss the days of youth. Wherein you can be crazy and all. Back to the days when you are gaining the best friendship you could ever have.

I miss it. I miss it.

Now I understand why people says don't rush and enjoy life. Because once the time has passed, you can never get it back. And now, I am regretting everything. For not living my college and high school life to the fullest.

I feel oh so sad.

Jonnar

Bigla na lang sumakit puso ko. :(

My Angel in the Night

It just can't be right. NO. It just can't.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 9

Day 09 - a song that you can dance to

Can't take my eyes off you by

Well, I do not know if I can dance to this song, but I remembering dancing to death with my friends one holiday date with the girls and Jan.

I love you baby. Don't make me down I pray.

Memories

Bumabaligtad sikmura ko.

Very timely

Funny how everything seems to happen in time. The Gabe Bondoc thing, Cathy Nguyen thing, Freestyle thing, Gandang Gabi Vice thing. Why is that?

Tears

Well hello there dear tear. It's been a while since I last saw you.

.

Dear Butterflies,

Please let me sleep tonight. Please? Will you? Please?

Sincerely,
Ish

I Knew It

I knew this day will come.

How to deal?

Now, how can you deal with something you can't deal with? :( I just realized something. I am strong to be able to handle things. I just wish I am stronger to accept things.

Happy

With new shoes, new cardigan, new bag, new umbrella. All of it costing less than 1k. Ya hear? :)

Invader

Tumblr naman ngayon? Ikaw na.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 8

Day 08 - A song that you know all words to

Sukiyaki by 4pm

Besides from Right Here waiting, which is already given, here's another song that I know all words too. I love this song.

It's all because of you, I'm feeling sad and blue...

July 25

Oh my! July 25 na pala. Oh shet? Jitter!

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 7

Day 07 - A song that reminds you of certain event

Talk You Down by The Script

Well, I don't know if it's really an event, but I everytime I hear this song, it always reminds me of the days when I was still doing my thesis (5th year). Perhaps because I always play this song with my laptop while doing my thesis. Oh good ol' days. I remember all the cramming I had. :)


We're standing on a tiny ledge before this goes over the edge...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Wwimgki3OIQ

What's Up

What's up with Cathy Nguyen and Gabe Bondoc? It kinda surprised me. Were they ex-lovers?

At The Cross

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8ymxE3Ahqeg

Stargazing

I want to go on a stargazing again... What a lovely sight. And I want to catch a shooting star again. <3

Tumblr, Twitter!

Whut? Ininvade mo na nga yung twitter with your friends and now pati tumblr? Insane. You're a sick, papansin guy. Gaaah! Can you just get out? Gosh.

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 6

Day 6 - A song that reminds you of somewhere

I Can by Regine Velasquez

Since I can hardly think of song that reminds me of a place, this one's a song that reminds me of Batulao, Batangas and our HS retreat where I shed so much tears because of too much emotions.

I can love you until the end...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HT2bcqvGw0

Baller

Come whatever.

Whut? I think I want baller band and colorful wrist bands. ;) Yay yay yay! Puhlease?

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 5

Day 5 - A song that reminds you of someone

It Might be You by Stephen Bishop

I'm reminded by this man (whom I do not know if he remembers that he dedicated this to me) everytime it is played. Actually, the song "Alipin" too reminds me of him.

Maybe it's you, I've been waiting for all of my life...



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGMUGgGvVvw&feature=related



If I may just add too, the song "Collide" reminds me of one of my best guy friends, M. He kinda got a different type from other guys, I think that's why we both have same taste for songs. I don't actually remember what happened but all I remember is that I heard this from Pinoy Big Brother. I fell in love with it and became one of my favorites too. Then I just knew that Mikko loved it too pala. Basta. I forgot what happened. But it made me realize we have the same taste. :'>



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ncur-ce4khY

BTW, this song also reminds me of Kristine and Oyo's wedding. Collide's just a perfect wedding song :)

STOP!

What on earth? Please stop making twitter your chatroom. Nobody wants to know what you are talking of. Like we're part of your daily lives? Hell no. Gaaah, I wish I could just unfollow you. That'd be sooooo much fun!

FVCK! STOP!

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 4

Day 4 - A song that makes you sad

Farewell by Raymond Lauchengco

Well this song really doesn't make me sad. But I would remember the tears I had while singing this on graduation and etc. This song is about goodbyes. And that is what's sad.

Farewell to you my friends
We'll see each other again
Don't cry 'cause it's not the end of everything




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j2Z5yLlncjM

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 3

Day 3 - A song that makes you happy.

Jingle Bell Rock (this one's from the Mean Girls version)

Jingle bell, jingle bell, jingle bell rock. Jingle bells chime in jingle bell time. Dancing and prancing in Jingle Bell Square...In the frosty air!

Who doesn't like Christmas, eh? Everytime I hear Christmas song, it makes me feel that Christmas is near. Christmas season always makes me happy <3. I just chose this song from the rest of the others 'coz it's fun and and lively and interactive? I just love Christmas Season. Don't ya? :)



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7Dw7GE_BYjI

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 2

Day 2 - Your least favorite song.

Magbalik by Callalily

I used to like this song. Well until today I still like it though. It's just that it's nakakasawa. Plus the memory that this song brings me, it sucks.

Tulad ng mundong hindi tumitigil sa pag-ikot pag-ibig di mapapagod.



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2G5s-FkqH3Y

Password

My blogger password is so unupdated. It's like 3 years ago password. Like hello? It's kinda annoying. Must change password S-O-O-N!

Once in a while

I get attacked by depression. I hate it. After being so much happy. . .

Tsk

Bilis ko talaga magalit. As much as I want to, I just can't do it. I have been short tempered na talaga. :|

30 Day Song Challenge - Day 1

Day 1 - Your favorite song.

Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx

Wherever you go, whatever you do. I will be right here waiting for you :)

This has been my favorite since i-don't-know-when. I just remember loving this song and the nostalgia this song gives me. It makes me feel like there's a connection between me and the song.




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S_E2EHVxNAE

Hangover

It's already Wednesday and I still have the weekend's hangover. Friends are one of the best gifts anyone could ever have. I'm so happy. I feel so refreshed. Foinally, after weeks of so much stress. Here's to happiness! *cheers*

Nakakapagod

Nakakapagod pala magorganize. Ikaw ang stressed at lahat ng pressure nasa'yo. And you couldn't expect anything from your colleagues. They're all just waiting for the outcome. Kakapagod.

Forever

and ever, you'll stay in my heart. And I will love you forever and ever... :)

Everytime

It breaks my heart everytime it enters my mind.

Why do I feel like blogging these days?

I just love writing how I feel. :)


And oh, can I sing?


As soon as my heart stops breaking... :)
[currently playing--at office]

3 years

I just realized, it was June too when I started blogging here in the year 2008. Oh well, how time flies so fast. And imagine, it has been half of the year yet. Just like that?

Happy 3rd year, Dear Blogger. Thank you for being my comfort zone. And for keeping quiet, listening to my heart and all. You're the best.

Love lots,
Ish

Kalerkey

Dami naglilike ng picture ko. Hahahaha! Dati pa to eh, DP ko sa twitter. Ngayon ko lang pinost sa fb. :)) Watta. Feeling ko tuloy ang ganda ko *blush* Hahahahahaha Kapal ng fes. Feeling so much loved :)

Being loved

Ahh... That feeling. Feeling of being so much loved by the people that surrounds me. It just couldn't get any better!

Not feeling well

Hope it will end real, real soon.

Routine

Facebook, twitter, facebook, twitter, facebook, facebook, twitter, facebook, facebook, twitter, facebook, twitter, tumblr, facebook, twitter..... zzzz

Apparition

Why always show that thang to me? :( Not feeling well. Everything's conniving against me again. Even fate.

What eesz that?

Now tell me, who's gonna like a lady with this kind of legs? One of a hell experience. :(

This one?


or this one?

It Starts Today

Bringing back my old self starts today. Nobody said it's gonna be easy. But little by little, I know I can. This is so not me. I miss my old self.

Short Tempered

Why have I been acting like this lately? Or why am I feeling this way. Is it too much stress? I do not know. I have to get back to my old self. The one I really like. I just realized that I have been changing. Being the stronger person I am today, I just realized that couple of things changed too. I have been a little mean, and short tempered, which was unusual of me. I'm not liking what am I today. I think I just need to unwind, and do some retreat. I have to get back to my old self. The one that is loved by many. And not this one you are seeing today. I also have to be spontaneous again and be the happy person I was. I need it. I will. After everything's done.

... And then I'll pray. I will trust everything to Him. :)

I miss

I miss the feeling of having someone to share stories and account of the day with. Someone willing to listen to my senseless stories. And above all, I miss the feeling of being loved.

...But don't get me wrong, it doesn't mean I'm ready to enter another relationship yet. I just miss the feeling. Especially when I feel alone... And no one to talk to. :(

Si ******

Ay pagod na pagod na pagod na. :( Nafefeel ko na ang stress sa pinapasukang trabaho. Bakit ganun? Hindi na naman ako makaramdam ng saya? Sakin ba may mali? Lagi na lang ako di masaya.

Tumingin ako sa salamin, maraming tagyawat, puyat, inaantok. In short, napabayaan na ang sarili. Nakikita ko, tumanda ako sa mukha. Ang aura ko malungkot. Di man ako maganda pero hindi naman ako ganito kapangit dati. Bakit lalo ata ako pumangit? Napapagod na ako. Nasstress. Di masaya sa environment na meron dito. Di ko masyadong gusto mga kasama ko. Ang dami ko iniisip. Tulungan nyo ko.

Kailangan ko magbakasyon. Kailangan ko! Seryoso ako. Kailangan ko makapagunwind. Napapagod na ako. :(

Apparition!

Whaat eeesszz happening?? I'm seeing names. Kinda weird.

Bakit?

Bakit ang bilis ko mainis at magalit? Is it that there's something wrong with me? Or my surrounding's just colliding against me and I can't do anything about it? I hate it.

Breathe in. Breathe out.

Let me hibernate and think of the things carefully. I wanna go on a retreat. :(

Ok

Bakit kailangang makita pa? :(

Terrified

And I'm in love. And I'm terrified. For the first time and the last time. . . Of my only life.

Please?

Pwede ba wag ka na sumagot? Please? HAHAHAHAHAH! The nerve! Makareply lang eh. Pwede fb ka na lang ulit? Wag ka na magtweet? Mas masaya twitter nung wala ka pa. Bow.

EH

Bakit ka ba active sa twitter ngayon? Eh? Close? Sungalngal, you like?

God is good!

All the time. I just had the worst days of my life. Yesterday was like hell. I felt that everything is in my shoulder. I felt that I made the biggest mistakes in my life that I will forever regret. I just felt that I wanna die that very day. I even had palpitation the whole day. I wanna die. But I asked the very good Lord to help me. Never I knew that He is going to give me a sign that everything will be alright. And never I thought that it would be this quick. I feel so blessed. I just felt that somehow, everything will fall into places. Thank you very much! I trust in You! :)

Stages

I have always heard of this. But never have I thought I would experience it myself.

I searched it in the net, and the stages goes this way
1. Denial
2. Anger
3. Bargaining
4. Depression
5. Acceptance

That's just one of so many websites. . . But then, I would want to have it rearranged.
1. Depression
2. Denial
3. Bargaining
4. Anger
5. Acceptance

The first 3 that I mentioned, (check!) I actually experienced it. Those three happened at the same time for the longest time.

Anger (check!) This one though is what is currently happening.

Acceptance (blank) - Soon to happen :)

But wait...

What is this palpitating thing? :(

Life

Gohoes on.... And it's only gonna make me strong :)

...is pissed

Yes I am. I feel so bad. Why do I always get disappointed? Why do I feel like everything is conniving against me. Why? Why do I feel this way. Why? This little disappointment made me think a lot of things. Why is everything against me? When will it be my time? When? I'm tired. So tired. :(

Why

...am I feeling this again? It's not right :|

Even the Desert has Beauty

Good times and bad times are part of living. It is difficult to fully appreciate joy until you have tasted sadness. Laughter is sweeter if you have experienced tears. There may be times when you feel like you're stuck in a dry and desolate place, but an encouraging call or a hug from a friend can be an oasis; beauty in the desert. Though it may not be easy, try to remember that the trials are going to help you fully experience the joy on the horizon.

Knock Oveerrrr!!

Unicorns. . . I love them <3

John Lloyd Invasion

One More Chance, My Amnesia Girl. . . And now what? I Miss You Like Crazy! What is happening? Can this JL invasion stop bugging me? Pretty please? Ha ha. Naah, kidding aside. I can relate. OM! But for the personality of Maricar Reyes. It damn hurts right? Gosh, now I hate watching love stories AGAIN! It only revives the pain. How I wish hurt never existed nor should I experienced it. . . How I wish. . .

Kase naman kase

Watched My Amnesia Girl. I thought the story was like of 50 first dates. It surprised me though.

Ugh. An early greeting. Happy heart's day everyone. :)

I'm glad I was able to do it. Burn that long kept letter up. Guess I am. . . you know :)

Lastly, I don't feel right as of the moment. Don't know why. Maybe cause I saw something. Oh dear! Stop it. Please? Oh, fate!

PS: These are random thoughts. I don't know how to explain it anyway. I just feel like blogging.

Time

I just don't know how to react on things.