Remembrance

To the man I love. . .

Before I forget everything, here’s our story. . . In case I have really forgotten everything, at least I’ve written something that would remind me of the sweet memories. . . Here it goes. . .

It started in the year 2005 when an ordinary young lady with not a care in the world meets young man who had a carefree and happy life. . . (Class scene) First day of class, I was f*ckin late. What was I thinking?! I entered the room on the fourth floor where the class was already going on. I sat to the last line on the back of the class since I was late. What I didn’t know is that he is sitting right next to my seatmate, R. I didn’t notice him. But he did. He had a crush on me the first time he saw me. Then he tried to know my name. On one of our classes that day, we introduced ourselves, then from there, he knew my name. (stalker much? :p) Then days passed, he introduced himself with us: Judith and Leah. He was with his barkada that time. And introduced themselves with us. But when I learned that he has crush on me and when they started teasing us, that is when I felt ilang na with him. I never talked to him. But he got my number from I-don’t-know-who ( but whoever he/she was, thanks to him/her. Haha). That is how our friendship started. We texted, knew each other better thru text. But would you believe we are not talking personally in school? (Kasi nga, I’m naiilang :]) He even named his rabbit D.

UST Paskuhan, I was mad at him for telling untrue stories. I just learned from M that he told him/her that I kissed him. I was really mad at him that time. And so when Paskuhan came, we were not ok. He asked M to accompany you to buy a bear (peace offering?) So there, the birth of R*****a. I was mad at you. But when I saw the bear, it was white and really cute. I loved it, and I hugged it so tightly. I gradually lost my anger to you. (but not because of the bear)

January 2006 came, just before his birthday, he had the courage to go to my dorm and talk to me personally. At first, I thought he was joking, because I know he can’t. He’s too shy to do it. But I was just surprised to see him with M in my dorm. So it felt like our first time again to talk with each other. I still felt kinda ilang. Good thing M was there. Then day(s) after his birthday, he drank with his co-choir members. I was too naive that time and I just hate someone who drinks. I hated him for that. Then after knowing that I didn’t like it, he was like “sorry... sorry.” He kept on saying sorry and promised never to drink again (but it wasn’t true :( Cause I just knew that he still continued drinking).

Anyway, that’s how our love story started. Although, I just learned that the time he had crush on me, he was still in a relationship with C. :[ (he is a history. He also had done that twice with me :[)

When vacation came, he almost gave up his love for me. Because he thought that everything that is doing was not worth it, because he can’t win me. But then, when he gave up, he still went back because he said that he really love me and that he can’t live without me.

On our 2^nd year as College students, that started our closeness (even closer and personally.) That was the time that he usually visits me or accompanies me on my way to dorm. He even stayed hours in our dorm just to be with me. But he said that he was not courting me (because I told him I’m not ready yet.) Our bonding grew stronger and we knew each other better.

He went to my debut in Bulacan, but he just got jealous with P who was teased with me and kissed me on the cheek. I was really sorry. I said sorry a million times but he seemed really hurt. But anyway, after that we became fine still. But that was also the time that we started fighting for every occasion: birthday, Christmas, new year etc

The day of Paskuhan, we both attended Misa de Gallo in UST. So, since 4am up to Paskuhan, we were together. That was 4 am to 11 pm, man (I think.)

Before the school year ended, that was the time I was telling him that I love him too. But that was unofficially us (but later on, we decided to make our monthsary February 16.)

April or March of 2007, I was having my autocad class at SM Manila. But since the time that I was held up, he started picking me up there. (and I wanna thank him for those times. For the time that I felt I really have a boyfriend :] and I wanna thank him too, for hugging me tight after learning that I was held up. That hug just made me felt secured and it somehow eased my fear that time.)

On our third year, our class got dissolved. The only class we were together was Cad. When we had our fight, we didn’t talk with each other. But when I can’t tiis him, I still teach him how to do the cad. (haha, Am I sweet? :])

Our retreat in Antipolo was just awesome. Not because of the experience but because of the time we spent together. We didn’t have so much time to go to the vicinity because he was too lazy to stand up and walk. I remember that I even got pissed with him for not enjoying the place and staying at the room the whole day. He was alone in our room because I left him. But after a few chats and eating, I went to the room and brought pizza for him (sweet :])

On the second sem, he took some of his subjects in our section. We were seatmates in Theology. So everyone knows when we are having fight because there is a space between our seats if we are not in good terms. Haha. A would usually tease us when he knew that we are not ok. And with his tease, we usually got to laugh and just compromise.

Vigan was also memorable. We were seatmates in the bus. So we literally spent sooo much time on the bus together. Then, Valentines came, but we had a fight too that day. He didn’t make that day special.

(to be continued...)