here we go again

What is happening? Is love really fading away? I'm quite sure mine isn't. I love you with all my heart and you know it. But what pushes me away is you. You are pushing me away, making me feel that yeah, it's not the way it was before. But do you know why I'm hurting? It is because I still love you. But I don't know you, if you still love me like before. Now you don't have load to text me. And that's fine with you. Unlike before, you can never have spend a single day without texting me. Well then, I considered it forgiven anyway because I'm thinking you have a problem with your school these past few days. Do you remember your promise to me? That after you fixed everything up, we'll go out? And do you even remember that before sembreak came, you said, you're going here in our province and we'll be bonding?

I was the one with you those times that you were down, those times you feel helpless and alone. And now you're back into mood, how is it going? YOU HAVE ALREADY FORGOTTEN ME!! And why? Because you're happy again! YOU are ONLY with me through your BAD TIMES! But you're never with me through your happy times. Now I'm doubting. Do you really love me? Or do you just want someone to be with you when you have no one?

You gotta think about that. And I'm gonna think of sending you away. Yes, I love you. But I'm just not receiving the kind of treatment I wanted to have. I DON'T DESERVE IT!