waiting

right here waiting
that is my favorite song.. but what I didn't know is that i will be repeating those words again and again today. I thought it is going to be easy to forget you. But what I do not know is that the more I force myself, the more I get hurt. Yes, I am really hurt. You said you love me, but not the way as it is before. I am really hurt and especially when I learned that you are open to the possibility to fall in love with "ces". So okay, today almost whole day we are talking. And because of the things we talked about and the situation we are in today, I have come up with a decision. And that is to wait for one month. One long month. It may seem to be just a little time, but I think, 1 long month may end the love we have today. I love you. I told you that. And I know, the way you answer me, you are not feeling the same way. I wish sooner, I'll become happy too, like you are now. By the way I see how you answer and the way you talk, your answer is 50% 50%.. 50% is what is only left for me.. and the other 50% is with "ces". As of now, I don't see any light. And I don't think you will be choosing me. I really hope you do and we end up happy and together FOREVER. But that vision seems to be paler and paler. I think, YOU ARE FALLING IN LOVE WITH CES. It hurts, it really hurts. And God knows how hard I cry. Every time I think of it. You may not be my boo anymore after this month. But always remember, you are always here in my heart. And the memories you left are just uneasy to be forgotten. I love you. But I hope, my prince charming will also come and rescue me from this trouble I am in. I don't know who that prince Charming is. But I hope it's you. I hope you will come and save me.. :(
Lord, please help me. You know I am miserable right now. Your will be done. If he's not meant for me, please Lord, please let me forget him as soon as possible. I can't bear the pain I am having right now.. :( please!